Finding the Confidence 寻找自信心

    本文选自《6小时快速提高高考成绩·英语》，王金战主编，张清勇、桂子辉编著，外语教学与研究出版社2013年版。主要讲述的是一个对自己没有信心的人，想通过各种方式寻找信心，面对人生的困难。

People always say that if a door closes in front of you, there must be a window opened for you. Yes, people always say that, but where is the window for me?

    I am not disappointed, just a little worried or as my roommate said, "Why are you angry with yourself once you fail to do anything?" I have no idea. I just can't forgive me if I can't understand some easy things. Currently, I just feel unsatisfied with myself because I couldn't finish the assignment on the lab, and what was even worse was that actually I did not understand what the assignment was! Fiona asked me why I didn't ask for help. The problem is that if I have to ask some silly questions, I will feel shamed.

    Before I came here I was confident. But I have totally lost it. Sometimes I can't even find the right words; sometimes I'm too shy to disturb others. I have to admit that I am stupid.

    The wisest people are always those who can take advantage of others' wisdom. But I was so stupid as to close myself and waste a lot of time soaking inside the workbook, which made me more confused. Why can't I follow the sentence? I am determined to get help the next time I have any questions. I can admit I am not smart, but I shouldn't hide it. I must solve it as soon as possible. Otherwise I will have to waste much more time on it—just like tonight.

    Difficulties always go with me. Go ahead! I can make it!

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人们总是说，如果在你面前的一扇门关闭，一定有一扇窗为你打开。是的，人们总是这样说，但是我的那扇窗在哪里？

我没有失望，只是有点担心或就像我的室友说，“你为什么一旦你无法做任何事情就对自己生气吗?”我不知道。我只是如果我不能理解一些简单的事情就不能原谅自己。目前，我只是觉得对自己不满意，因为我不能完成实验室的任务，更糟的是，其实我不了解任务是什么！霏欧纳问我为什么不寻求帮助。问题是，如果我要问一些愚蠢的问题，我将感到羞愧。

在我来到这里之前，我有信心。但是我完全失去了它。有时我甚至不能找到合适的话，有时我太害羞，不能打扰别人。我不得不承认我是愚蠢的。

最明智的人总是那些可以利用别人的智慧的人。但是我很愚蠢的关闭自己，浪费了大量的时间泡在书本上，这使我更加困惑。为什么我不能明白这句话吗？我决心下次我有任何问题时去寻求帮助。我可以承认我不聪明，但是我不该隐藏它。我必须尽快解决它。否则我将不得不像今晚这样浪费更多的时间。

困难总是在我身边。去吧！我能做到的。

本文提到的生词：

currently adv.目前

assignment n.任务

wisdom n.智慧

soak v.沉迷